Day 181: Ball

Happy ...Wednesday and Day 181 of Another 100 Days of Hannah ...and Counting, y'all!

First things first: guys, we are closing in on our 200th day with this blog. So crazy! The year is flying by. (I mean, it is after all the last day of June!)

In any case, today’s post gets to be short because I have to head out soon to go halfway across the state again. However, as we all know, if I don’t blog in the morning, as a rule, essentially nothing will be said. C’est la vie.

So, let’s dive in.

Last night, I was out practicing pitching. I know, I know, why is an almost 30 year old who has (essentially) never played on a baseball/softball team out practicing pitching at 9p? Good question, but that’s not the train of thought this morning.

As I was practicing, I was thinking back to my pre-teen years when one of my cousins and I would play baseball for hours on end. I may not have played on a team, but there for a while, I could pitch pretty accurately at a solid clip.

Sometime in my early teen years though, something changed. Maybe my brain decided to clip those neurons, who knows. In any case, one day while in gym class in late middle school, I tried to throw the ball, and instead of reaching my classmates hand, it hit the ground about 6 feet before him. Everyone laughed. I was so embarrassed. (Clearly.) Ever since that day, whenever I go to throw a ball with any force, I freeze up. Until now.

This summer, the kids of some close family friends decided to take up baseball, and I have been enjoying going and spending the evenings playing a quick game before bed. As much as I enjoy it though, I miss feeling confident when I throw the ball. I’m tired of picturing my failure over and over and over again, and so, I finally decided to do something about it.

I’ll admit – it isn’t always pretty. Some of my throws are wayyyy outside the strike zone. Slowly but surely though, that long lost muscle memory is starting to come back, and as it does, that memory will hopefully begin to fade a little more each time.

What fears are holding you back today?

Catch y’all tomorrow,